Some happy is cos i can go out with my friend but when i reach home sad

I am happy to go out with friends. Sad is i wish i no ned to study can work. But. Haiz. Sad le. Some more i hope not the same sch as him. Yet. I don wan to think so much le. I wish i can work till i die. But still have to study. But the sch is going to start soon. Less then 1 month le. Sometime i don understand. Y he wan to be like tis. Does he enjoy lost 1 friend??? Haiz. I wish i nv noe him be4. Nv mind. I have already 4get wat he do to me. Y he still cannot 4get. I don understand y he scared of me. REALLY REALLY DON UNDERSTAND.